Lost

I feel lost and utterly out of place with what i am doing right now. I know that this is not me. I feel like i am just filling up my days with endless things so that i will not become bored. or just to deny the fact that this is no longer me anymore. i feel like there is something totally alien and hostile that is in me right now. when i look back at my friends, i catch a glimpse of who i was before. someone that i totally know. but to look at myself right now, i feel like i am looking at someone else's life. does working in a call center change you that much? that i can no longer reconize myself? true, i do not lack for anything, and i enjoy the income it brings. but in the end, the question is, it is worth it? is it worth losing myself and who i really am?